HAHAHAHAH
So I sat down to write...
McKenzie called me to get TJ out of her room I did came back and lost my train of thought. LMAO.
Til next time
Friday, March 11, 2011
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Elements of Love
I always watched the world growing up not to understand Love and all it's elements.
At almost 30 I am realizing it's alot of hard work to stay in love and keep your soul mate. Silly as it sounds right. Soul mate means your meant for each other and nobody else that when all else fails your soul mate is by your side. You just need to look and you'll probably realize your soul mate is still there.
It's true, as much as you love someone does not mean you can not be hurt by that same person, or that you don't hurt the people that you love. To put it simply it's life, the ever evolving days of life.
Those who know me know that I hate change I have a hard time adjusting but I do it. Now i have 3 beautiful children and a husband who I know loves me to make me fight harder to adjust. To make me want to adjust to the world around me and make it so I don't want to just run away.
That is what i have always done, it's what I have watched so many times over and over again. Who says when it broken it can't be fixed?
The people that don't want to be bothered fixing it, the ones who see no hope and no return but to move forward alone.
At the end of the day that is not me. Not anymore. I rather fight everyday and give it my all if it hurts me and some around me then walk away just to make it easy. Life isn't easy and for some reason we all want it to be. I am so blessed and when I look past the pain that I feel that is what I see and the pain disappears. Love and joy fill my heart and there is no room for misery.
On the days that my emotions are raw that is when I have to fight, even if nobody understands, but people do and it helps to have someone tell you sometimes that your not being crazy your just dealing with life. The friend or love that brings you back to reality. That is why you choose to have the certain people in your life that you do. They make you the person you are, good bad or indifferent they are there. They can tell you anything and although it may hurt it will be okay because they will help wipe away the tears.
I have wiped away more tears and I'm still here fighting and I will never stop, because it's what my family deserves.
So at almost 30 haha I realized these elements of love
*It grows as long as you let it
*It hurts even if you don't want it to
* It give you a reason to smile a reason to be sad and make s you who you are
* not everybody wants to be loved back but it doesnt mean someone doesnt love you
*Some points of your life you need to be alone to just figure things out but that doesn't mean you need to be alone forever.
That I love being loved by my husband and children and that I love them completely.
At almost 30 I am realizing it's alot of hard work to stay in love and keep your soul mate. Silly as it sounds right. Soul mate means your meant for each other and nobody else that when all else fails your soul mate is by your side. You just need to look and you'll probably realize your soul mate is still there.
It's true, as much as you love someone does not mean you can not be hurt by that same person, or that you don't hurt the people that you love. To put it simply it's life, the ever evolving days of life.
Those who know me know that I hate change I have a hard time adjusting but I do it. Now i have 3 beautiful children and a husband who I know loves me to make me fight harder to adjust. To make me want to adjust to the world around me and make it so I don't want to just run away.
That is what i have always done, it's what I have watched so many times over and over again. Who says when it broken it can't be fixed?
The people that don't want to be bothered fixing it, the ones who see no hope and no return but to move forward alone.
At the end of the day that is not me. Not anymore. I rather fight everyday and give it my all if it hurts me and some around me then walk away just to make it easy. Life isn't easy and for some reason we all want it to be. I am so blessed and when I look past the pain that I feel that is what I see and the pain disappears. Love and joy fill my heart and there is no room for misery.
On the days that my emotions are raw that is when I have to fight, even if nobody understands, but people do and it helps to have someone tell you sometimes that your not being crazy your just dealing with life. The friend or love that brings you back to reality. That is why you choose to have the certain people in your life that you do. They make you the person you are, good bad or indifferent they are there. They can tell you anything and although it may hurt it will be okay because they will help wipe away the tears.
I have wiped away more tears and I'm still here fighting and I will never stop, because it's what my family deserves.
So at almost 30 haha I realized these elements of love
*It grows as long as you let it
*It hurts even if you don't want it to
* It give you a reason to smile a reason to be sad and make s you who you are
* not everybody wants to be loved back but it doesnt mean someone doesnt love you
*Some points of your life you need to be alone to just figure things out but that doesn't mean you need to be alone forever.
That I love being loved by my husband and children and that I love them completely.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
A New Year Welcome 2011
I don't know where to start exactly. I think that this past year has been such a nightmare. My life as I know it feel apart around me and I let it happen.
I can tell the world this 2011 here I come. Iam not goin to rattle off a bunch of resolutions that I'm not gonna stick too. I'm not going to make promises I can't keep. I am going to become me again, and Iknow and realize that I have to find me again.
My marriage has taken a turn for the worst, my children have been put aside because of it and it's truley all my fault. I shut down, I stopped fighting for what I wanted most in life. My family, all because I didn't know what to do.......
It took a whole year but I know now and I am going to do it.
Watch, wait, read, Listen as 2011 becomes the year of a life time and next year we r having a party to celebrate a year to remember has past and it all started by putting one foot foward.
I can tell the world this 2011 here I come. Iam not goin to rattle off a bunch of resolutions that I'm not gonna stick too. I'm not going to make promises I can't keep. I am going to become me again, and Iknow and realize that I have to find me again.
My marriage has taken a turn for the worst, my children have been put aside because of it and it's truley all my fault. I shut down, I stopped fighting for what I wanted most in life. My family, all because I didn't know what to do.......
It took a whole year but I know now and I am going to do it.
Watch, wait, read, Listen as 2011 becomes the year of a life time and next year we r having a party to celebrate a year to remember has past and it all started by putting one foot foward.
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