I know once a bluse moomn I update on the kids. Truth be told I wish I took my time everyday and just wrote an update. Then again as the truth has it , I just don't have the time.
I am not writting to let you know that all the kids are wonderful, and they are. To tell you there latest accomplishments because they do have so many, but to whine a little.
To start:
I love my life , I do. My three amazing beautiful children fill my life with so much joy that it makes me wonder how I got so lucky. Each one of them and I have such a wonderful realtionship. Sean and I are incredibly happy living our lives for our children sneeking in moments of daddy mommy time which is usually spent catching eachother up on the kids or work.
I have been promoted at work to assistant manager. I am so proud of myself for climbing the ladder so fast. I started at Dunkin in June and took time off from November to May for MY little big guy. The started again in May and I am now an assistant manager a place where it usualy takes people years.
So now I am a full time working mom that is scared at the same time is so excited for the life that I am living everyday.
Faith: My beautiful third grader who is little girl trying to find her way and becoming stronger everyday as an individual.
McKenzie: My preschooler who is so big and so smart but still so little and learning more everyday.
Thalan James: My angel from above who has taught me better then anyone in this world that there is always a reason to smile.
Working as much as i do I am sad and miss my family. Sometimes it makes me very bitter. To know that I am missing out on things that they do when I am gone. I know in my heart that this is what I have to do for them that I need to listen to myself when I explain myself to them when they question why mommy has to go. That without mommy working we can't do special things like dance or go on vacations to exciting places. I usually leve out the pay the bills part:)
Faith hates when I am not here when she wakes up or goes to bed. So I have changed my schedule so it's only tops twice a week she wakes to no mommy, and never goes to bed without mommy kisses. Kenzie just cries and begs for me not to go, because my little Connie can not handle the mommy leaving. Thalan whines when I say goodbye and hand him off. Then again when I am driving home I smile just thinking about the hugs I get when i walk in the door.
I am scared though , scared that I can not handle juggling both and that something might fall and break.
Then what happens?