Sisters

A week ago Tuesday Faith was supposed to go somewhere with her mom. Needless to say she was very excited, and then came home at the usual time because at the last minute they didn't go. Well, when I talked to Sean before I got home from work he said she was fine, but I didn't believe it. Soon enough I walked in the door and she ran to me hugged me and tears came streaming down her face.

We talked and in the end I feel as though I consoled her as much as I could. She turned to me though and said "I guess I should know by now all she does is lie why do I even care" I told her that it is OK to care, because she is her mother and no matter what her mother does she does love her it's OK to be sad when your feelings are hurt. That is when Faith told me to stop , stop trying to make the hurt go away that I can only protect her so much.



This came out of my 8 year old. I cried , I couldn't hold back the tears, but then Faith said she was sorry. I held her and told her my tears weren't because I was hurting , they were because I couldn't take her pain I couldn't protect her from everything. We hugged and cried and then kenzie walked in saw us and commented, mommy I didn't do it, I didn't make sissy cry.

That got us laughing a little and we got ready for bed. I tucked the girls in and heard them chatting for about 20 minutes before they both fell asleep. Thinking wow soon it will be hours that they are up talking about everything.



The next morning came and Kenzie told me that Andraya is not aloud to hurt faith no more. That is makes her angry that she made her sissy cry and she is going to yell at her and if she ever does it again she will hurt her back. Faith looked at me and said she's right mom and she is mad but tell her not to yell at my mother.



This time it will be easy Kenzie never sees Andraya. In the future though as the girls get older I don't know how to stop this battle. Kenzie loves Faith and defends her to the end with everybody, my sister would do the same even up until now. I love how they love each other and would give their all to protect each other.

This morning though when Faith was getting ready for school, Kenzie said "sissy if you need me call daddy's cell phone I will not let her hurt you anymore" Faith hugged her and said told kenzie she loved her. The subject was dropped. I on the other hand walked away hiding my tears because we can't protect her, we can't take away the pain that is caused by her egg donor of a mother. The woman that sees no wrong in anything she does to this child all because she is to selfish to see beyond her self.

Everyday I get through by reminding myself that Faith will become stronger because of all of this and as long as we are her for her when she needs us to be she will be ok.
Am I right?