Just Breath.

My entire life I have always been the one who worries more than I should, the one that thinks the worst will happen when anything is going on. I have always doubted myself as a person , because I have never had the emotional strength to do other wise.

Now your thinking this is where I write I have changed. Um... no not really. I honestly don't think I ever will.

Butt... I have learned to just breath.

When I am overwhelmed with guilt of not having time with my family, or I realize that I have to fight my way through dirty clothes just to clean it. I seem to stop breathing. This is 2 of many things I find myself not breathing about. It could be a deadline at work or the simple fact that I have not cut any coupons to go grocery shopping.

The fact is that I blame it on several things, being a middle child. Yes I said it. The fact that I am a Pisces and yes I believe in Zodiac signs. This little stuff makes me well me. Like it or leave it.

Through the years I have learned it's never going to be simple and laid out. There will always be days when I should of stayed in bed or want to crawl back in and that is OK.
There is going to be weeks that just seem to blend in with each other because I am busy. I kind of signed up for that having 3 kids and being a full time working mom .

In between I have taught myself to breath. I know it is a natural thing you learn in the womb right. No, wrong very wrong. This process of breathing takes a lot to learn. How to breath and become center again. How to live and keep pushing through and take the breath that gets you through it.

I have done it. I am proud of this because at the end of the day it make me a better mom, wife, and boss, it makes me a better me.

What I think,how I think Part 1.

As days come and go there are always things that I think about, some happy,some sad, some things out of the blue. I am going to let you into my mind a little bit, tell me what you think......

I am so grateful..
to have 3 wonderful kids that are happy and healthy...
to have a loving husband that supports me unconditionally...
to have my family and all of my husbands that nomatter what is going on in life they are always here ....
to have friends that are here when I am happy or sad.

To those who know me know that I worry(enough for an army of people)!

I worry about everything there could be to worry about but I have also learned...
That what doesn't kill us makes us stronger....
God will not give you more then you can handle.......
Everyday is a new beginning to let go of the things I can not
control....
There is always a reason to smile....and it's contagious:)

When life becomes frazzled or a day doesn't work out as planned it is ok to be upset just do not let it consume you.......

I hate when my children are upset because of me, if given a punishment for bad behavior or told to do something they do not want to...
Everyday I remind myself I am thier mother, not just an everyday friend it is up to me to guide them and raise them to know and handle life..
When they become upset over something like picking up there room or being told know I remind myself that they will not hate me forever but thank me later for life lessons taught at this time.

Children are so fragile but prove to be very strong and are amazing!

Mommy time outs work!

Nomatter what life brings me I am ready, nomatter what happens I will get through. Being sad is energy that could be used to see the good in something and make someone smile.