Sisters

A week ago Tuesday Faith was supposed to go somewhere with her mom. Needless to say she was very excited, and then came home at the usual time because at the last minute they didn't go. Well, when I talked to Sean before I got home from work he said she was fine, but I didn't believe it. Soon enough I walked in the door and she ran to me hugged me and tears came streaming down her face.

We talked and in the end I feel as though I consoled her as much as I could. She turned to me though and said "I guess I should know by now all she does is lie why do I even care" I told her that it is OK to care, because she is her mother and no matter what her mother does she does love her it's OK to be sad when your feelings are hurt. That is when Faith told me to stop , stop trying to make the hurt go away that I can only protect her so much.



This came out of my 8 year old. I cried , I couldn't hold back the tears, but then Faith said she was sorry. I held her and told her my tears weren't because I was hurting , they were because I couldn't take her pain I couldn't protect her from everything. We hugged and cried and then kenzie walked in saw us and commented, mommy I didn't do it, I didn't make sissy cry.

That got us laughing a little and we got ready for bed. I tucked the girls in and heard them chatting for about 20 minutes before they both fell asleep. Thinking wow soon it will be hours that they are up talking about everything.



The next morning came and Kenzie told me that Andraya is not aloud to hurt faith no more. That is makes her angry that she made her sissy cry and she is going to yell at her and if she ever does it again she will hurt her back. Faith looked at me and said she's right mom and she is mad but tell her not to yell at my mother.



This time it will be easy Kenzie never sees Andraya. In the future though as the girls get older I don't know how to stop this battle. Kenzie loves Faith and defends her to the end with everybody, my sister would do the same even up until now. I love how they love each other and would give their all to protect each other.

This morning though when Faith was getting ready for school, Kenzie said "sissy if you need me call daddy's cell phone I will not let her hurt you anymore" Faith hugged her and said told kenzie she loved her. The subject was dropped. I on the other hand walked away hiding my tears because we can't protect her, we can't take away the pain that is caused by her egg donor of a mother. The woman that sees no wrong in anything she does to this child all because she is to selfish to see beyond her self.

Everyday I get through by reminding myself that Faith will become stronger because of all of this and as long as we are her for her when she needs us to be she will be ok.
Am I right?

Busy, busy.

Wow I can not beleive it's December 1st.

Before I start on that though, let me go back.
Thanksgiving was wonderful. We went to Seans Grandparents with the kids and it was so peaceful. I made the sides and Gram did the turkey. God bless her and Gramp, at 84 &94 they are both still going strong. I don't know where we would be without them, they both give us so much support that it really gets us through. I love them as though they are my own grandparents and can't think of life without them .

On to Dec. and I know this month is going to fly by, we are so so busy.

Starting this weekend. Here is my Saturday schedule.
10-12 girls have dance
1:45-2:45 Faith has basketball
4:30-6:30 kenzie has her fisrt friend at school birthday party.
Then when we come home I think we are going to decorate the tree. (If I get it up before then)

This is about the same for every Sat in Dec, except its a different birthday party after basketball.
One being.......

My little big mans first birthday. I can not believe it's been a year. My baby doesn't even look like a baby anymore, he looks like a little boy. He will always be my baby though.

Then a week later it's Christmas, my favorite holiday, EVER. I definitely need to start buying new decorations though. My mom always had our house done up like it was a gallery. I know it took years of collecting but still. One day my house will look like a Christmas gallery too:)

Here's off to a busy month let's hope I find the time to blog.

My Marriage

Sean and I have been together for well just about 5 years. Although it seems like yesterday we just meet.
I am amazed on how far we have become
individually,
together,
as parents,
as partners,
and to be honest everyday I am in disbelief how I have someone that completes me so well.

Maybe your wondering why I am writing this.

I realized last night that I just wouldn't be with out him.
What Con?
Five years later and your just realizing this!

No I knew it but to be honest last night I felt it.

While we were talking and he was wiping away my tears and put all the pieces back together for me. As I went to sleep and felt relief my husband not only understand me but he gets me.
I woke up this morning knowing that today is a new day and no matter what happens he is here for me and in so many ways it makes me feel better.

A Saturday of thought.

For the first time in about two minths, I have a Saturday to relax and take mommy time. Thalan is still home with me while the girls are at Gram's but being that he is such a good boy I can not complain.

So much has been going on latley and I realized today that I have not taken any time to process any of it.

So I am thinking it all through. Not having a fight in my mind about any of it, just writting it all down in a notebeeok so I can see the actions I have to take.


There is a life lesson here beneath all the crazy surroundings.

It's not just to take life one day at a time....
Or even one moment at a time...
It's to remember to breath through all the moments and remember that life is what you make it.

To smile even when you are sad...
Let others give a helping hand....
Don't be afraid to stand for what you believe....
And most of all be thankful for life itself...

I love my life, and I am proud of who I have become through the years. I know i am strong and when I am not feeling as strong as I think I should be I am thank ful for my wonderful husband.

A big Family

Coming from a big family has taught me many things through life, and to be honest I am still learning. Having a family of five isn't huge but it is not small either ,to be honest I think it's perfect.

Some things I have learned:

Family is always there when you really need them, even if they are not the ones you speak to everyday.

Nomatter how upset you are with anyone in your family if you were raised right if they need you they are there.

Some body that is close enough to your family to call your parents mom and dad will always be family.

There is no difference in siblings even if you have a differnet mom or dad.

Presents don't really matter it's the love that is shared when your together.

There are always going to be times when someone is upset with another, but in the end life is to short to hold a grudge.

Having children of my own has made me realize that life is more precious everyday. Nomatter what is going on, or how bad a day could be the truth is as long as you have family surrounding you life is never that bad at all.
I hope in raising my kids I can show and teach them the things I have learned and learn more from them as well.

A little late..

Happy Halloween!!!

The kids had two day s of halloween this year and recieved enough candy for two months. Friday we had Kenzie's Halloween party at school ,which was very cute. I love seeing little kids dressed up. Friday night faith had a Halloween party at a friends house which was great. Thalan kindof just went along for it all, but I have to say he was and is the cutest tigger ever.


Here is Faith with her Vampire pumpkin that she painted at the party.



Here is Kenzie in the little parade at school. She was a musketeer princess.

Thalan James bouncingat me to grab the camera. Love this pic even though it's blury.

A little late but better then never.

Looking foward to next Halloween already. I got pumpkin carving kits on sale yesterday 75% off. I have loved Halloween sense I was a kid, and it's just as great as an adult.

Follow my Blog .... pretty please

I think I need more motivation,to be honest it's a little sad sometimes to see that I only have three followers.
So I am asking you all to follow my blog, ask your friends and send outthe word. I will folow you if you follow me:) Even though I may follow you already and this is why I am asking.

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